Wednesday, March 31, 2010

error trial

one of my birthday gift from my sisters is disderi 3 lenses, actually its kind of lomo, but lomo hasn't admit it as one of their sort. this is my first roll, which is error-trial, just 5 photos succeed while another 35 shoots thus slight. anyway, enjoy and give me some tips then.

(kind of weird, the photos can't be rotate :|)

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

simplest way

drapery wear as dress or cape

simple is another dressing up

back when hi-school way

leather not just allow for jackets or pants, either dress

grey is the new black

I always loved simple cut

get them all from here.

feeling guilty

have you ever felt being someone bad?
yea, I DID. couple days ago, I felt that way. I've been the worst man alive ever.
you know why? it's caused I did hurt somebody feeling.
maybe I hurt someone a lot, but this time was different. I was like hurting him slightly, which is I never ever done it before. you don't even know how I feel.
let's make it a quick-story-telling, I've been in a get-to-know progress with someone recently, actually he's my old friend and we've been a good friends, all of the sudden others friends are trying to make us getting closer. at the first time, everything looks just fine but afterward it's just wrong. weird. awkward. inconvenient. I feel like, 'men, this time I'm in a wrong track' where the is hell my principe? I said, that once as a friend always be friends for good. but then I break my words. and I FAILED.
I couldn't make it through with someone which I don't have the same way with him. thus, I decided to take a retreat slowly like; I replied the message if it's necessary and so on. after that act, one of my friends asked me about that stuff and to be frank, I couldn't tell her the truth. I hide it up with laugh and try to talked another topics. but then, the truth release sweetly from my own mouth and the first thing in my mind was 'what am I talking about? screw you, Ranti'
they asked me to say what I feel for real which I got busted, then I told them everything I have done. and asked for their help to give him a 'sign' that am not into it any longer.
then, that night them all talked to him and tell everything I've said. BUT THEN! NIGHTMARE CAME TO ME. yea! he called me and told me that he knew everything. while at that time, I should give him certainty. VOILA! that was it, I became a heartless couple days night ago.

NOTE : I've never refuse someone directly. I always gave them a sign before they moved too far with me. I can't say it, yep! that is the immature side of me. just couldn't. this is for the first time I pulled it out. I'm deeply sorry to you, am not as you think for real, I just beyond your expectation.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

today is the DAY

today is my birthday.
I ain't have any interesting story.
the surprises went so well, at 12am my bestie(s) were came to my house and bring pieces of cake.
and also, my girls(s) came by in the afternoon.
I felt so happy, because I ain't expect any surprises at all but in the same time.
i felt terribly sad, cause momma was not around. she got a duty to go to malaysia for a week.
so here is today went so flat without her around. yea! am 20 but still so spoiled and childish.
anyway, in the end of the day (at least) I had some fun to going out for dinner with the girls and some of friends. and laugh until we die.

by the way, thank you for all wishes you gave on twitter or facebook.

here are some birthday wishes :)

from twitter ;

too bad I can't put all the wishes, at least your wishes are so mean to me :)
love you all and this bearhug for all of you .
today I felt so special and remind me to people who care about me .


Saturday, March 13, 2010

took here , there ; wherever

middle exam test really is killing me softly, when i got trapped,
I took giant on and turned on yellow-desk-light.
and pressed the shutter button freely.

so here are the result ;

and actually it's narcissistic . lol
but it's put away dizziness for a while.

" truly inspiring person never tried thus hard to inspired others. It comes naturally. "

Friday, March 12, 2010

anxious yet ecstatic


and in fact, I'm afraid of being that ages.
will be an adult
heavy responsibilities haunted on me
someone said ;
" Age is linear , personality is not "

what am I afraid of ?
being teenager has a great mind and creativity,
being adult feels like killed those .
stucked is the most fear

its like a burden being thus,
at rest I'm being such daddy little girl
fact, I don't mind it.

let 20th be a number , just , a number.


Perhaps I seem thus spoil or even childish like count-downing the day to my birthday. kikikiki. but guess what its been a pleasure for me to do thus I do love welcoming birthday every years, its like every year was different and I do love surprises for God sake, who doesn't actually ?

why do I love birthday ? because at 'that' day
I feel so special, I mean it. like everyone memorize 'it' day, pray for a very precious wish, think about gift to be given (believe me, every present has its meaning by the way) and last I will have a blast at that day. that's why I loved it, actual
ly I have like zillions of reasons why, but I can't mention it one by one. just let me know it with my heart, azzeeeekk.

and for those whom thinking for the present t
hat suits me best (am way overconfidence at right thi
s time) ;p I'll give you some clue or maybe its not a clue its the things that I really want
it and it'll be pleasure if you all want to make it come true ;

Some bucks to fulfill my needs

getaway golden ticket to everywhere, to facilitate to have some relaxation

bookstores voucher

this skirt made me can't sleep (exaggerate!) its from mango and suits me best ;p

lomo camera

in fact, I just want to be surrounded by people that love me. fufu and too bad momma will leave at exactly my day to fly away to malay for a week. just wished I have a very blast day.