Monday, July 27, 2009

awesome journey

last weekend, i had AWESOME LONG LONG TRIP to pangandaran.
that's our huge-family-gathering for the first time !!
and i never expected it'll be my best holiday ever. can you imagine? we're so free to do anything.
woohhoo!! everything's just perfect .
and i got burnt. uh. but it'll be better soon, gonna catch another fame-gathering, YEAY!!


me , big sist , and li'sist

cousin's and siblings

Friday, July 24, 2009

new yellow lights

my mom bought me a lamp long time ago, but i haven't touch it at all.
and tonight because of the lens of my camera being clumsy,
so i have to put it near the light (maybe it can make my lens warm) lol.
i do really love the yellow-lights from my multi-shape-lamp,
and decided to took a picture before had a great dream.
pssstt, tonight will be my relaxation night. that lovable lights c
hanges my mood in the end of my day.

here are the pictures

lovable lamp

moi :-*
mirror mirror on my arm. lol

gotta off to bed now, tomorrow have to get up early. tomorrow gonna be LONG JOURNEY. pray for enjoy the trip. haha
nitoymucoi . mwaw


Thursday, July 23, 2009

blew up

which one is my priority?
i have to choose which one is the most important things.
now, I'm in the middle of difficult intersection. I already had my answer then, but when she revealed mine answer, she against it!
she wasn't advocated me. she forcing me, indirectly, i have to choose, which is same as her decision.
i don't have any decision in my lifetime, haven't decide anything, everything always dominated by her or somebody else, maybe she did like that, because she know everything would be the best for me. but for this time, give me a chance to do what I wanna do.
i do really fed up stand behind your shadow and being what you want.
just see me as I am.
when i fail, she blame on me but she never look what she has done. i gotta work hard, for not being fail, because too scared to see her angry to me.
and this time, i have to follow what she said, just hope and pray i won't fail again, do the best as i can do to make her really proud of me and stop blaming nor complaining.

but until now, all i can do is nothing. i never say it or bringing it forward. just still on my silent, which they won't listen.


Wednesday, July 22, 2009

second wishlist

tweed military cape

quilted leather skirt

checked umbrella.

zipper flower headband

J Brand
91210 Pencil Leg - Oz

Leather Camera Case - Black
MILKA (black and white stripe)

ksubi ++
batman cape top

muse-zipper dress

anyone? *big wink*


these are things that i bought at my escaping last week.
here they are;

Mango big brown sling bag * Lucas bag (gift from relative) * Braun buffel purse * Zara snake skin legging artificial * Pull and bear white top and studds vest

i just realize, the bags which i bought has similar color with my gift bag. also my vest and my legging, has a similar color, what a coincidence?

Friday, July 17, 2009

escap-ing. lalalalalala

tonight i packed all the stuffs, and tomorrow i'm going to go to jakarta. lalalala
sing out loud! hhahaa
i dunno, i waited for escaping things for a weeks! felt so bored with my hectic activity and the subjects on my college is driving me crazy. so before i had my final test, i need a holiday. just for refreshing my stuck brain! HHAHAAA
gonna have a lotta fun for 3 days.

and i felt so sorry for Indonesia, my beloved country. i guess all of these stuffs just a politic conspiracy. they who-can't-face-the-lose wanna ruin the government. it's just about jealous! COME ON, PLAY IN A FAIR PLAY. least, for the terrorist what-so-ever with your motive behind your act, but if your purpose just wanna make as fear, YOU'RE SO WRONG! we weren't scared at all. and i do realize that we'll get along together to destroy you all.
tunjukan bahwa anda semua manusia.


Tuesday, July 14, 2009


*who can stand with this awesome necklace?*

Usb Robot Pendrive Necklace

just those stuff, what i found today. yeay!
gotta heck it out another stuffs tomorrow. haha

swimming day.

today, i had a great time with aphe and camen.
just both of us, who had swim :D
(me and camen)

i had a lotta fun there.
i learned how to dive well, and camen told me how to do so.
so hard! considering about my sooooo-light-body. lol
difficult to have stayed under the floor, flow of the water push me to the surface.
so i gotta push myself to have stable inside the water.
tiring activities. haha
i guess what i tried to do on my -hotandcold- afternoon was ridiculous.
but it's gain a lotta fun and laugh :)

*i'll upload the pictures later :D

have a great night. NITEY NITE ..

♡ R

Saturday, July 11, 2009


in every relationship the important things are TRUST and COMMUNICATION.

trust is means that we believe to somebody and the-one-who-we-trusted give us the feedback to believing us too. it's 2 ways communication. that's why we should to trust each other. from trusting, it's connected with the communication. if you communicated well, so we'll minimize the possibility of being miss-understanding. we can reduces our cat-fight, reduces cheat-thingy, reduces all the damage for our relation.

some of my friends, she told me that, she always had a cat-fight with her bf, every single day!! and i asked her about several things, and i concluded that them both don't communicate their mean.
the girl don't know what is behind the boy acts, and either to him. so miss-understanding will always there.
you'd better ask, because grumbled behind won't solve the problem. just talk and listen.
don't take this thing to easy, it'll blow up someday :)

*ps: it just not happen wif boy/girlfriend. sometimes it works with any kind of relationship.

cheers, baby-behel :-*

♡ R

craze sang-a-song

today, i spent a day with all my girls!
long time didn't meet them all.
and we decided to have OUR-RITUAL-THINGY :))))
KARAOKE wif totally
we had a fun time together, adn we sang until 2 hours. felt so tired
and my throat getting
worst now :|
hey! i suggest you to sing
are you want to be my girl from JET !!
that so fun song, everyone would sing LOUDLY. trust mey.

here are the photo's that i
*selftimer works!

the biatch :-*

*me and dita, goin craze with our un-great VOICE

*me, on my tirring times to sing :))

gotta sleep now . had a great dream everyone. HUGS

♡ R

Thursday, July 9, 2009

get it warm !

anyone would mind give me this awesome pinkish warm-booty :|

or maybe these one,

as i said, just hope and pray !
*haha. naon.

♡ R


You always expect everything will happen with your thought-way and you’ll disappoint when the fact wasn’t work on your way. You’re not mature enough to think. Don’t act like you’re all right and strong, but you’re so weak inside.

Then when I said,

“Need shoulder to cry on”

That person will answer,

“I always ask someone to cry on mine.”

Those words remind me for someone, someone who told me that night, on your ride. I miss your heavy-voices, your gestures, your smell, and I do really miss your courage

♡ R

over thingy

Overconfident can damage miss-understanding thought.
for the first thought will affect the miss-understand one,
and after that thought will come wrong perception about kindness
and those are the beginning of crush-ing stuff.

Had a wrong perception cause the damage, all the damage for heart.
Hurtful will always be on the last, not for the regretting.
Regret because of something will change nothing.
Change our thought, first things to realize is if you dare to fall in love, so you dare to fall down.
Skip the regretting things, because there’re so much more precious things to think beside.

♡ R


Malam ini adalah malam aromatherapy untuk kesekian kalinya bagi wanita itu.

Keadaan kamarnya yang gelap,

hanya ditemani beberapa cahaya lilin yang muncul dari balik pot aromatherapy yang ia nyalakan.

Malam ini, wanita di atas kasur tidur terlentang ke atas,

menatap langit-langit kamarnya,

memandangi langit-langit berwarna putih dan terdapat bercak-bercak kuning,

mungkin baginya atap kamarnya adalah langit diluar sana yang bertaburan bintang.

Saat ini wanita itu masih tidak dapat memejamkan matanya yang hitam pekat,

padahal waktu sudah menunjukkan lewat tengah malam.

Ia hanya menatap atap tersebut dengan tatapan kosong,

dengan wajah tidak berekspresi.


Wanita itu melamunkan hal yang tidak orang-orang ketahui.

Tidak ada yang tau bagaimana sebenarnya perasaannya,

bahkan tidak ada yang tahu apa isi hatinya, apa yang membuatnya gundah gulana.

Sehingga malam ini harus berakhir seperti malam sebelumnya.

Ia mencoba meraih telepon genggamnya, dan mengetikkan suatu nama,

muncullah sebuah nama yang sangat familiar baginya,

ingin rasanya menekan tombol berwarna hijau, tetapi diurungkan niatnya.

Bukan karena takut membangunkan siempunya dari nama tersebut, tetapi lebih kepada ‘dimana otak saya?’.

Besar sekali keinginan hati melakukan apa yang dapat membuatnya tenang,

dan dapat tertidur dengan pulasnya, hanya dengan mendengarkan suara lembut nan sejuk.

Mengapa wanita itu lebih menekan egonya?

Mengapa ia tidak melakukan apa yang memang ia inginkan?

Hanya ia yang tahu dan hanya hatinya yang dapat menjawab kegundahan hatinya.

"Missing the one, who always be the one to share with, seems as s person that live, but there’s no soul on it."

♡ R

courage time



hmm, i've played the looklet things.
and i wanna share the look's that i did..

enjoy ...

♡ R


i made some account on
when i read on sour cherry post, she recomended that web's for making some project same as polyvore.
so, i tried to have the account (thnks then)
can't wait to publish it out . :D:D:D:D:D

♡ R

hope and pray. haha

tonigt i found this when i blogwalking :D

Astali Bullet Bracelet, $116, available at Astali.

and surely i want it damn these much!!! ergh. could you sending me this one? i would love too :D

♡ R
today i saw aurora things before i'm arrived at home. not as beautiful as the pictures that you see down there. but there's orange lights behind the dark of night. *lebay. lol

begitu aku sampe, aku mikir, aku tuh tau apa aurora, but i dont even know, what is the trully "AURORA" means. kaya gimana deskripsi ilmiahnya juga agak kabur di otak aku. :D hehehe
dan langsung aku buka wikipedia dan menemukan apa arti ilmiah dari aurora.

" Aurora adalah fenomena pancaran cahaya yang menyala-nyala pada lapisan ionosfer dari sebuah planet sebagai akibat adanya interaksi antara medan magnetik yang dimiliki planet tersebut dengan partikel bermuatan yang dipancarkan oleh matahari. "
* ionosfer itu bagian atmosfer yang terionisasi oleh radiasi matahari.
aurora yang terjadi di daerah sebelah Utara dikenal dengan nama Aurora Borealis. selain itu Fenomena aurora di sebelah Selatan yang dikenal dengan Aurora Australis .**

setelah aku baca penjelasannya langsung inget sama putri aurora deh, yang jadi pemeran utama dari sleeping beauty.

ceritanya dimulai ketika pesta kerajaan yang diadakan Raja Florestan ke-XIV guna menyambut kelahiran Putri Aurora. tujuh peri baik diundang untuk memberikan harapan baik kepada sang putri. namun di tengah kemeriahan pesta tiba-tiba terdengar suara gaduh yang ternyata ulah Peri Carabose. karena dendam, peri jahat itu langsung mengutuk Putri Aurora, bahwa ketika berusia 16 tahun, sang putri akan tertusuk duri dan meninggal.

kutukan itu begitu kuatnya, hingga Peri Lilac, peri kebaikan, tidak mampu mematahkannya. Untuk mengurangi penderitaan seluruh kerajaan, Peri Lilac berjanji, bila kutukan itu terjadi ia akan membuat seluruh kerajaan akan tertidur selama 100 tahun. ia juga menambahkan bahwa kutukan itu akan terpatahkan oleh seorang pangeran.

waktu terus berjalan dan kutukan itu pun terjadi. putri Aurora tertusuk duri dan tidak sadarkan diri. tak lama kemudian seluruh kerajaan tertidur.

seratus tahun berlalu. seorang pangeran tampan dari negeri seberang datang dan mendapati sebuah istana tertutup semak. ketika akan masuk ke istana itu, Pangeran Desire ditemui Peri Lilac yang menceritakan mengenai kutukan Peri Carabose. ia kemudian bertekad untuk membebaskan Aurora dari kutukan jahat itu.

setelah berhasil menaklukkan Peri Carabose, Pangeran Desire mencari Putri Aurora dan menciumnya. seketika itu juga sang putri terbangun bersama seluruh kerajaan. dan akhir cerita Putri Aurora dengan Pangeran Desire menikah and they life happily ever after. :)

kenyataanya, aurora yang sebenarnya sama cantiknya sama aurora di dongeng :D ehhee. iya kan?? :) tapi mereka punya karakteristik kecantikan yang berbeda. sama dengan kita manusia, kita itu punya porsi cantik yang berbeda. setiap wanita itu CANTIK dengan ciri khasnya masing-masing.

♡ R

illumined every step

secercah cahaya yang menebus kegelapan
dalam kegelapan cahaya itu timbul
cahaya tersebut mampu menembus seberapa gelapnya malam
seperti bintang yang tetap terlihat diantara pekatnya langit
dan bulan yang terus menerangi bumi dalam gelap
walaupun cahaya lilin ataupun lampu tidak sekuat cahaya bulan,
tapi ia tetap mampu menerangi,
walaupun kecil,
ia tetap memiliki semangat,
karena ia bertujuan untuk menerangi langkah.
cahaya kecil jelas-jelas tahu,
bahwa ia tidak akan bisa menerangi semua,
tetapi ia terus menyala.
mengapa semangat itu seolah-olah hanya ada pada cahaya?
mengapa semangat itu tidak muncul dalam diri?
mengapa pesimis lebih kuat dibanding optimis?
mengapa memilih mundur sebelum pernah maju?

♡ R

guessing the-DEEPLY-thing

i try to had some quiz, which's all my friends at facebook tried. just wanna know deeper about me. is that true? i dont even know it :D
and here the result !!

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict.
Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

*comment : intelligent?! am i? i don't think so. i'm the laziest girl in my family :D.
honest ! just WOW. i never say the truth. ok, i said the truth but evrything i said or everything i told, i always to cover it up. you do that either!
yea. i do really not interested in CONFLICT things. i prefer at *zona aman*.

The type of boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner.
Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with.
The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

*comment : actually i don't really get it, whats they mean? can anyone help me?

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person.
And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

*comment : is there the RIGHT words out there? i dnt even know, that i ready, maybe i do, but i dnt know him.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like.
if you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

*comment : GOD damn it! that's true. if i wanna spend plenty of time with him, it could be, you're the right person :D ehehe

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life.
You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

*comment : i just WANT it, never DO that. lol

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income.
Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

*comment : do the job , must be the things that you like. dont work under pressure! you have to thnk about the happiness and satisfy

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed.
Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

*comment : yes, i really do scared to fail! i'm too easy to give up.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control.
Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

*comment : until now, i cant control it all. everything just blow up! maybe CRY would be better.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence.
You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still,
but never for long.

*comment am i confidence? lol. (Seems this's wrong.). yeah! unpredictable, but easy too guess. say it COMPLEX.

♡ R