ways to get closer with

so rare !! I'm home before 12 on monday. Not in a mood to go nowhere and think I need my quality time for sure. Time to get enough sleep, planned to have some photo shot alone, wanted watch dvd's all day long, read most-looked-for novel and try to understand the lecturer. then the last one, i gotta try my new-game-bie. hm, that's point blank , the PC games that i wanted to play beside the sims3 (it's online games actually). i'm to curious to try! lalalala. but before,,

I had a story to share, my routine activity on saturday or sunday. Yep! daily-routine when weekend comes around.

firstly, saturday afternoon daddy's come to town. He's back from work once a week. saturday (for me) is the same day with other day. prefer to accompany mommy at home than go out or hung up, while sisters usually planned with their bf. when daddy's coming home, we usually had dinner together and (sometimes) when in a very awful mood, parents took me out of home just to looking for what i want, somehow we always hook at starbucks to lift my mood.

Second, on Sunday. we have our routine time to find or buy our needs! it can be for the pc, phone, car or anything else *pst, too bad i can't find any lenses for my giant! it's cause the store closed on sunday*. while we're in the car, we always had precious conversation. I don't even know why can't we talk the important things in a very normal way? like others family does. we share and discuss it on the car! can you imagine? it'll ruin our mood frequently (especially me and sisters). but back then, that's us :)

Third, laugh tears anger mood expression are expressed on car! car are everything. but wait! we did talk at home sometimes, when the problem's are to crucial then needed couple hours to talk.

Fourth, when MONDAY comes around, dad chauffeured me off to college in a very early morning, when sisters out of the car. i dunno why! he gives me some bucks, he said 'takut kurang, nang!' hey dad! i already have monthly-cash from mom, then why i should get some more? but then i realize there's special connection between you and me, dad. that's why i do love and adore you much more than everything in this world.

Fifth, actually this is my own routine! lol. i can't get enough sleep on sunday night. worked so hard to fallen asleep. when put away phone wasn't work for good. used sleep-well aren't work too. it's frustrating times! when you realize that you should wake up in a very berry early morning, but still you can't close the eyes. yeah, it's always happen in my sunday night. -.-"

well, well, well, there's many rules and rutinities here but just 5 things that i can remember. i'll check on it later when i remembered :P

WELCOMING TUESDAY, *longlongday.

♥ Я

PERFECT end's

I started today in a very sleepy and clumsy mood. I wasn't in the mood to have any conversation with others.

me and family planned to go to some phone stores, to change my awful anti-gores ! I don't know why, weekend went so wrong and soooo-not lately for me! Why can't I have a great sunday like after? bring them back !!! Bring my mood back !!!!! I couldn't find myself back (again) this isn't me. SO NOT ME.

and about the task? *sigh. don't even want talk about it.
it really made my day went so awful ,yeah AWFUL!!!! PERFECT.



♥ Я

less to know

I wonder, that i just know less then i know now.
why?

- rantinauli

PERFECTIONISM

setiap individu pasti ada sifat perfeksionis. selalu ingin melakukan yang terbaik, hal itu yang memicu adanya spirit dan ada tujuan untuk meraih cita-cita. ada spirit dalam hidup, motivator dalam diri. berusaha sekuat tenaga untuk mencapainya. memikirkan setiap detail yang ada.
mencari yang terbaik dalam kumpulan terbaik.

walaupun begitu, keinginan membuat semua menjadi SEMPURNA tidak selalu berjalan mulus. selalu ada hambatan, berpikir menggunakan logika! apabila kita memohon pada tuhan sesuatu, apa tuhan langsung memberikannya?

tuhan pasti memberikan kita satu jalan untuk menggapai itu semua.
tuhan tidak memberikan hal itu secara langsung tanpa usaha yang berarti.
yang aku tahu, tuhan sayang semua umatnya. tetapi bagi aku tuhan tidak mau memanjakan umatnya. tuhan ingin umatnya berusaha dan bersyukur tiap jerih payah yang dilakukan. selain itu pula, ketika akan mencapai GOAL kita, selalu berpikir we're not done our best. whereas we did it.
kita akan selalu merasa kurang akan effort yang kita keluarkan, merasa kurang maximal, dan tidak puas. yeah! itulah ciri manusia. sedikit bahaya juga, apabila manusia mudah puas. dengan begitu there's no more faith. merasa enough and satisfy with all of it. sedangkan waktu terus berjalan dan sebelum semuanya berakhir manusia harus melakukan hal yang berguna bukan? itulah kita tetap memerlukan rasa ketidakpuasan itu (in positive ways, indeed)

for example, i just read upi's blog (ya, upi avianto sutradara). when she was in the making of serigala terakhir, she said over and over again, that indirecly ia merasa tidak melakukan yang terbaik, kurang maksimal, dll. but for sure, the movie was awesome. untuk hitungan perfilman indonesia, itu film kena maksudnya. it reachs its goal (in my opinion) it wasn't full-action movie, but its closest to it. jangan membandingkan film ini dengan film action luar. jelas itu bukan suatu bandingan! film ini membuat saya mengacungkan jempol.

disini terlihat bahwa setiap manusia selalu merasa kurang. disitulah muncul karakter perfectionis manusia. tetapi bagi saya sifat perfectionis itu memberikan energi positif, dengan begitu manusia mau berkarya hingga menghasilkan yang terbaik, memperbaiki kesalahan yang dibuat, introspeksi diri, dan lain hal.

this perfectionism leads us to be better man day by day.

Imperfection makes perfection

kekurangan yang menjadikan manusia lebih kuat dan merasa sempurna karena belajar dari kekurangannya sendiri. saya memang tidak seperti orang kebanyakan dengan segala keindahan mereka. tidak memiliki kaki super jenjang, badan idaman, kulit putih cerah, wajah yang ciamik, otak yang brilian, tutur kata yang manis, kedewasaan dan juga jiwa wanita dalam diri.

itu semua bukan saya.

tetapi terkadang dengan segala kekurangan yang saya miliki, saya bersyukur. itu yang membuat saya berbeda dengan yang ada, membuat saya berpikir. (memang) terkadang dengan perbedaan yang saya miliki, lebih besar rasa iri dibandingkan bersyukur. seiring dengan bertumbuhnya diri dan banyak mendengar saran orang lain, mulailah pemikiran yang tidak terpikirkan.

ketika orang-orang berlomba mengeriting rambut mereka, saya sudah memilikinya. dengan kulit cokelat, garis muka yang berbeda, dan sikap yang sebenarnya tanpa berusaha menjadi fake (agar diterima). saya membawa diri saya yang sebenarnya.

kekurangan diri terkadang menjadikan kurang kepercayaan diri. saya akui, IYA (memang).
minder, merasa kurang. tetapi think it over again, kekurangan kita menjadikan kita lebih kuat dari orang-orang yang (nyaris) sempurna.
orang yang dewasa itu, orang tahu kekurangan dalam dirinya.
orang yang yang mengetahui kekurangannya dan berlapang dada mendengarkan kritikan adalah orang yang siap akan kenyataan.
siapa yang sadar akan hidup dalam kehidupan yang nyata adalah orang yang kuat.

saran dari teman , sahabat , keluarga.
baik manis hingga pahit dengan berbagai macam cara penyampaian itu yang menyadarkan saya,
dibalik segala kekurangan pasti seseorang itu memiliki sesuatu yang dapat ditunjukkan. sesuatu yang tidak orang lain miliki. begitu juga, dibalik suatu kesempurnaan pasti ada kekurangannya.
beruntungnya, they could cover their imperfection up, but we're not.

ps : mungkin posting kali ini, terasa seperti suatu pembenaran bagi diri saya sendiri atau hanya untuk menyadarkan diri saya, bahwa saya memiliki sesuatu (walaupun belum disadari). but the truth is this post courages me that i should be gratefull with my-own-self.

H U G E H U G

everyone worth for a hug, hug means a lot then any other love-affection.
hug won't be a immoral stuff, its just the way to show the care, protection, sweetness. actually hug haven't specific definition but one thing ONE HUG MEANS A LOT.
this is the quotes for hug :D

*missed being hug with*




Millions and millions of years would still not give me half enough time to describe that tiny instant of all eternity when you put your arms around me and I put my arms around you.
Jacques Prévert


Everybody needs a hug. It changes your metabolism.
Leo Buscaglia


You can't wrap love in a box, but you can wrap a person in a hug.
Author Unknown


I love hugging. I wish I was an octopus, so I could hug ten people at a time.
Drew Barrymore


No matter how hard you hug your money, it never hugs back.
Quoted in P.S. I Love You, compiled by H. Jackson Brown, Jr.


A hug is a handshake from the heart.
Author Unknown


You can't give a hug without getting a hug.
Author Unknown


A hug delights and warms and charms,
that must be why God gave us arms.
Author Unknown


Hugs are the universal medicine.
Author Unknown


Happiness is an unexpected hug.
Author Unknown


A kiss without a hug is like a flower without the fragrance.
Proverb


If you're angry at a loved one, hug that person. And mean it. You may not want to hug - which is all the more reason to do so. It's hard to stay angry when someone shows they love you, and that's precisely what happens when we hug each other.
Walter Anderson, The Confidence Course, 1997


Hug someone your appreciation.
Violet Gartenlicht


Hugging has no unpleasant side effects and is all natural. There are no batteries to replace, it's inflation-proof and non-fattening with no monthly payments. It's non-taxable, non-polluting, and is, of course, fully refundable.
Author Unknown


Sometimes it's better to put love into hugs than to put it into words.
Author Unknown


A hug is the shortest distance between friends.
Author Unknown

courage-thingy

"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment."

buddha