besties honor

last week my dearest bestie asked me to be a judge for their cheap-date-competition. the competition are; each person only gave about 5Ok for their date, they have to be very creative and well manage the budget. then as a judge, i can't wait to see how creative they are. it happened 2 weeks, it's split up by they turn. actually they did the vote from their friends also, and they counted me in.

you can see cheap-date-competition from here.

and whom i choose is,
CYNTHIA ANDANSARI a.k.a APHE

i choose her because;
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she's more creative than her hubby, she planned some game and made the day was so bright.


teach us to love a simple things, there's a loads of place beside mall to hangout.
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hey? who thinks about picnic? we missed it for a long time. we haven't remember when the last picnic.
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she manage a 50k so well, she taught for being thrifty.
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prepare things to be taken from house, its more hygienist then




launched firework at night made the day
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choose the perfect movie that stand behind a colorful day
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and the last one ... she brought a colorful day with a remarkable date ever :)

so, wait for the real winner she will announced as soon as possible.

zooey deschannel

she pull out the great aura

look through her eyes like a crystal ball

her brown long hair delicate as a silk

light skin of hers was so flawless

over all, she is adorable.

"I love old music, old movies, screwball comedies, vintage clothes, and basically I'm an old-fashioned gal."

HERS.

500 days of summer

boy meets girl. boy falls. girl doesn't

this is not a love story. this is story about love.

Summer: Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.

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Rachel Hansen: Tom, I know you think she was the one, but I don't. Next time you look back, I think you should look again.

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Narator: Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life.

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Tom: “We don’t have to label what we’re doing. I just… I need some consistency. I need to know you won’t wake up tomorrow and feel a different way.”

Summer: “I can’t promise you that. Nobody can. Anyone who does is a liar.”

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Tom: People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated.

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Rachel Hansen: Just because she's likes the same bizzaro crap you, doesn't mean she's your soulmate.

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Summer: "I just woke up one day, and I knew."

Tom: "Knew what?"

Summer: "What I was never sure of, with you"

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Rachel: Tom.

Tom: Hmm?

Rachel: I know you think she was the perfect girl for you…

I don’t. I think you’re just remembering the good stuff.

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some of them are from here

500 days of summer was totally awesome ! it's drama, ironic, pathetic, yet gorgeous. me lovey it so much. here are the quotes that touches me.

love living in autism

sorry for my lack time to posted something.

last saturday, i lived on my autism-world. world which just contains my-joy, books, songs and also coffee. when the rain came so hard, people busy with their own activity, the roads hectic like used to, i dumped of at street corner on some coffee shop in town. it gives coziness, warmest, capture something that we've not seen. i felt like that's my second home.

alone by myself in the crowd makes my heart feel much better. after, i've confused for a week and has no time for myself for a long time. escaping for a while (just a couple hours) is the best solution.

i realize, people do need their own time, time to self-introspection, evaluated what we have done, think how to reach future, it felt like living in a wonderland but sometimes we do need a fairy tale story to lift our enthusiasm of life.

am not a good dreamer ain't against the reality, sometime people have to fade away from this; the hectic schedule, backstabber, fake people around, and high-pressure also.

this thing was work for me, people call me nerd-dork-crazy or what-ever they called, i don't even care, it's their choice to call like those. the important thing is i be a better person than yesterday. YES, i did (even not from all aspect :p). can't wait for my-autism-time turning on.

bytheway, this is things that accompany me.

and how's yours??

introducing you all

its my beloved camera

GIANT :)

and the story goes with him ,

1. black or white? just GREY.



with my-very-berry-first-victim.
dearest, Hanna :*

2. staring around



3. don't judge from the cover


i'm not a pro then, but i learn day by day how to capture and find a great angle from the model.
enjoyenjoyenjoy

things around head

when I am quiet . millions of things are running in my mind.

when I am not arguing . I'm thinking deeply.

when I do answer 'I am fine' after a few seconds, I'm not fine at all.

when I stare at you . I wonder why you are lying.

» Those things above I get from broadcast message from friends. I edited some of it, I choose the MOST I am. then here those are things which is so indicate my-own-self.




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yes, I still do

After march incident I'm still like this. still stuck with you, won't moving on, faking in front of people, act like I do fine, cover the feeling up ! Now, in my stillness. yet, still into him.

for several months I expect person similar with him or even give the secure like he does. no one! not even one like that. Compare each other isn't mature way, but what can I say? Its just happen. Like what I said the most, IF IT SHOULD HAPPEN , LET IT BE ! Can't against - deny - or any words of it. It comes to me because (still) I won't moving on.

All I can do is NOTHING. Seeing he's on a date or in love with, hurtful but it open up my eyes to face the reality, wake up from sweet dreams !
From now on, stop comparing ! No more IT expectation. Just find what I want, no need in a hurry, slow but sure.

gdnite, blue me :)



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